Love & War

People say the only constant thing in life is change, but that’s certainly not true. As of this week, my brand includes my site with this blog, an active YouTube channel (watch my Vlogmas), and consistent TikToks. With all these content forms I’m trying, I see that I am in constant battle with fear, dreams, goals, people, and myself. Not in a negative way though, I’ll explain.

This weekend, at a networking event hosted by by CTLN Network, I had the pleasure of meeting recphilly co-founder, Will Toms. If you are a creative, strategist, or entrepreneur of any kind, you need to follow him. Recphilly is a hub for creators to offer their services, join in community, hone their craft, and be supported by brands and people leading and creating. He spoke of his experience building a business model over the course of 10 years and not necessarily finding perfect balance in his life in order to get it done. He mentioned that while recphilly was flourishing, he may not have been the best cousin or the best son. This resonated with me because of this constant battle I spoke of. He asked us, the attendees, whether we are looking to build community or an audience. There are pros and cons to each and I genuinely had to ask myself that question.

The answer, for me, is I don’t know yet.

All of that to say true artists, people dedicated to their craft, don’t always find balance, and that is okay. Your best is enough and showing up in the areas of your life that are important to you is the win. It does not mean you’re failing if other areas aren’t getting your absolute best.

When was the last time you did something you actually liked, rather than letting life dictate your weekly plans?

If you are going back and forth about trying something new, take it from me, just do it. I know sometimes even that sounds hard, but start small. Now that I’m writing articles, I truly feel fulfilled and am excited to do more (hence, my crazy a** doing Vlogmas after not posting on YouTube in two years).

The constant is love and war. There is trendy content encouraging people to romanticize daily happenings—that’s a form of love. War is what happens when you step outside, being who you are to the world. Or even at war with yourself, constantly debating if the small decisions you are making align with your goals, or even your dreams. I was dating someone and was nervous about it working out because I didn’t see him following me to NYC if I ever got that call. Literal love and war. We do the big scary crazy ideas because we love the game, but that doesn’t take away from it still being big and scary—a battle within the war.

I think ya’ll get where I’m going with this. Email me if you don’t. Best!